June 24, 2014


It’s one off those days where I just cannot stop missing and thinking about my babies…it hurts my heart so horribly.

I need to take the fattest shot of dope…I can’t deal right now.

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My beautiful girls…they are getting so big….the intensity of how much I miss and love them could create universes.

My beautiful girls…they are getting so big….the intensity of how much I miss and love them could create universes.

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My baby Sydney….I’m missing everything :(

My baby Sydney….I’m missing everything :(

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June 23, 2014


We’ll be a little worse for the wear but we’ll both come out the other side.

We’ll be a little worse for the wear but we’ll both come out the other side.

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June 22, 2014


I’ve got a couple of papers full of scribbles that I’ve titled Tips, how-tos, observations and thangs to be educated on before during and after your trip to the ocean: a tweakers survival guide to staying sane and afloat.

I’ve got a couple of papers full of scribbles that I’ve titled Tips, how-tos, observations and thangs to be educated on before during and after your trip to the ocean: a tweakers survival guide to staying sane and afloat.

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June 20, 2014


Hi hi hi hi :3

Hi hi hi hi :3

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June 19, 2014


I’ve pretty much been on a year long unravelling with no end in sight.

My sister sent me a really fucked up message the other day and I decided to just write a reply fueled by emotion….this is what I wrote back to her.

" It makes me so fucking mad that you sent me these messages. I hate that you guys care but nobody ever calls or anything else except to say how disappointed in me you all are or how confused about why I dont come home. I didn’t want to be with my husband anymore because I wasn’t happy. Then I met someone who at the time made me feel happy and special and because of that it made Kee move back to STG with the two lights of my life and everything I lived for and refused to let me see them. It’s the worst pain in the world Kiann and the hardest fucking thing I’ve ever gone through and am still going through. My heart fucking hurts and I’m stuck in a downward spiral that I don’t know how to get out of and honestly I’ll probably die because of it. I’m addicted to the needle. I shoot up meth almost every fucking day and I just discovered heroin. Anytime I even have a day of sobriety my heart just hurts and I really want to commit suicide. You think I want my family knowing all this depressing shit? I’m a fucking homeless drug addict living off the streets of Salt lake city. I’m so proud of you for becoming a mother Kiann its the best thing…and he is so beautiful…I miss you guys and I love you but I don’t want to bother you guys w with my shit."

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